Between Seasons

I took these two photos today: Notice anything? The first one is clearly autumn. The second one is trying to be winter. The lights are there, there’s a bit of ice on the water, but the snow’s a little late. The second photo is Whistler Village, which in the winter — on opening day of […]

Broken Ships

I stumbled on an interesting thing at work today: a museum for broken relationships. Filled with everything from torn up photographs to belly button lint to an “ex-axe,” the museum displays physical items — remnants of broken relationships — alongside the contributors’ stories attached to them. While the physical museum is located in Zagreb, Croatia, […]

Square fifty seven

Lately I’ve been tormented by the feeling I’ve been set back to “square one.” By the pandemic. By divorce. By the increasingly impossible cost of living in my city. By the social consequences of prolonged “bubble” restrictions. Square one… the words haunt me, and send me spinning into a downward spiral. Maybe if it was […]

The Grad School Dagger

When you’re trying to (a) focus on grad school, (b) make enough money to support yourself and pay for said grad school, and (c) manage the stress of pandemic life alone, among other things, the reminder that you spent 2.5 years of your life working Full Time so your former spouse could focus on grad […]

Psalm of Lament

How long, O Lord, must I wait in isolation? How long must I hide from the company of those I love? Until I wither into nothingness? Until I fade out of existence? Until I myself am just a distant memory, somebody that somebody else used to know? But this isolation is not the darkest place […]

Scene Of The Crime

Eleven years ago today, I got married. Four years ago today, I faced my first January 9th as a newly single, brokenhearted person. Today – for the first time – I returned to the scene of the crime.

Four Long Years (not an election post)

Four long years And I don’t know where I’ve gone But I’m awake now… Life goes on -Bronze Radio Return Four long years ago my life changed forever. It had nothing to do with the US election, but the date will always be reminiscent of that moment in my timeline when everything changed. Four years […]

Sometimes It’s Okay Not To ‘Get Over It’

“But what if the greatest secret insider trading truth is that you don’t ever get over the biggest losses in your life?” -Anne Lamott The scary thing about books is that sometimes the characters jump clean out of the pages and into your life. This is what happened the other day when I was innocently […]

Completing The Quest

Taking the Ring to Mordor It is a quest of epic proportions, taking the Ring of Power to Mordor to cast it into the fires of Mt. Doom. Just the kind of quest I need. For my second trip to New Zealand, on a quest to come “full circle”on the healing journey I’d begun there […]

A Piece of Eternity

Last Thursday I put my phone on airplane mode and set my life on monastery mode. I spent four nights – three full days – at a Benedictine monastery situated on a dairy farm in the hills above Hawke’s Bay, New Zealand. I settled quite easily into monastery life, attending the many services each day […]