Captain’s Log 2020

Captain’s Log, Earthdate 30.12.2020. We have almost completed a full revolution around the sun of the Earth’s star system. When we began this mission almost 365 Earth days ago, it seemed routine; hopeful even. There was little indication of the nature of the challenges we would face. In what now retrospectively seems like foreshadowing, I […]

Quarried Light

“When you come through a phase of pain or isolation or suffering, the light that is given to you at the end of that is a very precious light”, writes John O’Donohue (my bold/underline), whose words have been my companion these last couple of months. This idea of a light earned through hardship, isolation and […]

Morning By Morning

I used to say I’m taking things “day by day” but the days turned into weeks and the weeks are now turning into months, and at some point along the way day by day became too much to handle. So now, I am taking things morning by morning. Some mornings I wake up naturally with […]

In Between

Today is Holy Saturday, the in-between day. The day of silence, stillness, unknowns. In the Easter story timeline, the worst-case scenario has happened and no one yet knows what comes next. It’s a time of shock, stress, grief, anxiety, numbness, darkness, and waiting. In the current timeline… about the same. I feel very much in-between. […]

A Day of Lament

Today is Maundy Thursday, and I’m so glad it’s here. Finally, a day dedicated to lament and sorrow. All my favourite people are broken. But there’s enough sorrow in the world today. Why dwell on it? Why give it any more space? Optimism has its place, but so does lament. Believe me, my heart should […]

Silver Linings

I tried to write about hope, but it seemed too far away, too forced. I tried to find hope and found an article about penguins exploring empty aquariums, and that seemed good enough for now. The aquarium used the phrase “silver lining” and that seemed to fit a bit better than the vaguely taunting concept […]