Motorcycle Rides and Magic Necklaces

I put on my magic necklace in hopes it will impart on me some power of writing, of creativity, of resilience. (It’s day two of a month of writing and I’m already floundering, how about you?) Some magic is in there still, in the delicate heart with dinosaur wings hanging from a thin sparkling thread. […]

New Rhythms

With the start of a new chapter, my hope is to establish some new rhythms. New rhythms of daily life. Rhythms that move me away from burnout and toward balance. Rhythms that facilitate making the most of my time and prioritize creating/writing, not only for my job, but also — first and foremost, actually — […]

A new chapter

I am beyond excited to be able to write this title. I have been in a state of perpetual transition, waiting, “in-between-ness” and “stuck-ness” for what feels like forever, as you’ll know if you’ve followed this blog for awhile, had a conversation with me in the last 3 years, or even if you just glance […]

Square fifty seven

Lately I’ve been tormented by the feeling I’ve been set back to “square one.” By the pandemic. By divorce. By the increasingly impossible cost of living in my city. By the social consequences of prolonged “bubble” restrictions. Square one… the words haunt me, and send me spinning into a downward spiral. Maybe if it was […]

The Longest Night

Tonight is winter solstice: the longest night of the year. It certainly feels like it. In fact, it feels like we’ve been living in the longest night for awhile now. Waiting, in the darkness, for the light to come. Today, in my part of the world, we were told, yet again, of more restrictions. Just […]

Dead Reckoning

“So how’s the writing going?” An innocent question asked out of genuine care and interest pierces my heart. As any writer probably knows, any writer who hasn’t been writing, because… because. This simple question shines an unwelcome light into the darkest recesses of my cringing soul, through the secret back entrance that was foolishly left […]

Life Block

We’ve all heard of Writer’s Block. Some will tell you it is very real and can be crippling. Others will tell you it’s all in your head. Both of these are probably true. Whether it’s real or all in my head, I think I’ve been struggling for a while with not just Writer’s Block, but […]

The Grad School Dagger

When you’re trying to (a) focus on grad school, (b) make enough money to support yourself and pay for said grad school, and (c) manage the stress of pandemic life alone, among other things, the reminder that you spent 2.5 years of your life working Full Time so your former spouse could focus on grad […]

Psalm of Lament

How long, O Lord, must I wait in isolation? How long must I hide from the company of those I love? Until I wither into nothingness? Until I fade out of existence? Until I myself am just a distant memory, somebody that somebody else used to know? But this isolation is not the darkest place […]

Scene Of The Crime

Eleven years ago today, I got married. Four years ago today, I faced my first January 9th as a newly single, brokenhearted person. Today – for the first time – I returned to the scene of the crime.