We Know How This Ends

We already know how this ends, so why do we keep playing along? Is there not enough darkness in the world already? Is there not enough pain, grief, death, injustice, suffering yet? The worse it gets, the worse it gets. And the harder it is to get out of. We already know how this ends, […]

How Long Must I Wait?

Today is the first day of the season of Advent, the season of waiting, anticipating, preparing, and longing. As a child, the main understanding I had of advent was the advent calendar, where we opened one door each day to get a chocolate. It was an exciting and delicious tradition, even if it provided a […]

The Longest Night

Tonight is winter solstice: the longest night of the year. It certainly feels like it. In fact, it feels like we’ve been living in the longest night for awhile now. Waiting, in the darkness, for the light to come. Today, in my part of the world, we were told, yet again, of more restrictions. Just […]

Morning By Morning

I used to say I’m taking things “day by day” but the days turned into weeks and the weeks are now turning into months, and at some point along the way day by day became too much to handle. So now, I am taking things morning by morning. Some mornings I wake up naturally with […]

The Sun Always Rises

No matter how dark and long the night may seem, remember the sun always rises eventually.

A Day of Lament

Today is Maundy Thursday, and I’m so glad it’s here. Finally, a day dedicated to lament and sorrow. All my favourite people are broken. But there’s enough sorrow in the world today. Why dwell on it? Why give it any more space? Optimism has its place, but so does lament. Believe me, my heart should […]

Silver Linings

I tried to write about hope, but it seemed too far away, too forced. I tried to find hope and found an article about penguins exploring empty aquariums, and that seemed good enough for now. The aquarium used the phrase “silver lining” and that seemed to fit a bit better than the vaguely taunting concept […]

Epiphany

Today is Epiphany, or the 12th day after Christmas. Traditionally, Epiphany is the day for commemorating the “Three Wise Men” that visited baby Jesus in the nativity story. Many people are more familiar with the word “epiphany” referring to a revelation that changes you, your perspective, your world in some important way. “I’ve had an […]

Epilogue

if i’m not the love of your life i’ll be the greatest loss instead -rupi kaur Last week, I got divorced. There, I said it. The D-word. How do I feel? It’s like a birthday without the cake and balloons… you don’t feel instantly different.

Soundtrack of a Life Apocalypse

I desperately want to write, but I can’t find the words. There are, however, so many words. Words set to music that have been my comfort, my motivation, my lifeline, my determination, my soundtrack. I hesitate to share them with you: family, friends, and Internet strangers because, although they are mostly well-known, sharing them with […]