Recalculating

There was an amazing Jeep ad awhile back playing with the theme of Google Maps’ constant recalculating: “In 300 metres turn left… Recalculating.” “Go straight to a steady job… Recalculating.” (Woman looks at positive pregnancy test)… “Recalculating.” You get the idea. In the last few years of my life, I have had to do a […]

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Epilogue

if i’m not the love of your life i’ll be the greatest loss instead -rupi kaur Last week, I got divorced. There, I said it. The D-word. How do I feel? It’s like a birthday without the cake and balloons… you don’t feel instantly different.

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One Year Later

I may have forgotten my wedding anniversary this year, which is its own kind of victory. But this day I have seen coming for a while, looming darkly on the horizon. And now it is here. One year ago today I experienced the worst day of my life when my entire world shattered into dust. For […]

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Xylophone, Stardust, Dragonborn

Friends, family, citizens of the Internet, I need your help. It’s one of those pesky details I’ve been avoiding addressing through this whole super fun adventure of becoming unmarried. What about that whole name thing? This is always the hardest question for me when I’m building a character in video games, and when I got […]

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Soundtrack of a Life Apocalypse

I desperately want to write, but I can’t find the words. There are, however, so many words. Words set to music that have been my comfort, my motivation, my lifeline, my determination, my soundtrack. I hesitate to share them with you: family, friends, and Internet strangers because, although they are mostly well-known, sharing them with […]

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New Game Plus

It’s not the first time I’ve used a video game metaphor for my life, and it won’t be the last. Unlike video games, there is no reset button on life. But much like some of my favourite video games, there is a a way to take the experiences, items and elements from a previous play […]

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Journeying Towards The New

In the spirit of renewal and being made new again, I’ve decided to start a new blog to document my journey, as I’ve set off to Middle Earth and the Land Down Under in search of renewal, restoration, healing… and of course adventure! Starting in a fresh space will, I hope give me the freedom […]

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When All Around Has Fallen

Everything burned down. It happened so quickly. I just barely escaped with my life. That’s how it feels. After nearly a month away, I’ve returned with a brave face and a broken heart to the place where my world fell apart. After few frantic days of sorting, repacking, moving and unpacking my significantly pared down […]

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Oh, Was That Today?

Today I had a rather unintentional victory. I completely forgot that today is, or was, or would have been, my wedding anniversary. I completely forgot, in spite of an encouraging card left on my desk this morning (“Yes, today is a difficult day,” I thought. “It’s Monday, and I’m exhausted from moving, and it’s the […]

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