How Long Must I Wait?

Today is the first day of the season of Advent, the season of waiting, anticipating, preparing, and longing. As a child, the main understanding I had of advent was the advent calendar, where we opened one door each day to get a chocolate. It was an exciting and delicious tradition, even if it provided a […]

The Longest Night

Tonight is winter solstice: the longest night of the year. It certainly feels like it. In fact, it feels like we’ve been living in the longest night for awhile now. Waiting, in the darkness, for the light to come. Today, in my part of the world, we were told, yet again, of more restrictions. Just […]

Psalm of Lament

How long, O Lord, must I wait in isolation? How long must I hide from the company of those I love? Until I wither into nothingness? Until I fade out of existence? Until I myself am just a distant memory, somebody that somebody else used to know? But this isolation is not the darkest place […]

The Sun Always Rises

No matter how dark and long the night may seem, remember the sun always rises eventually.

A Day of Lament

Today is Maundy Thursday, and I’m so glad it’s here. Finally, a day dedicated to lament and sorrow. All my favourite people are broken. But there’s enough sorrow in the world today. Why dwell on it? Why give it any more space? Optimism has its place, but so does lament. Believe me, my heart should […]

A New Foundation

“If you can’t work out what’s going on, you’re better served by building a better foundation.” -from “12 Rules to Learn to Code” Already a month has passed since the beginning of the new year and the new decade. I am one month removed from Everything That Happened Before, one month into my new story. I […]

Monastery Mode

I wait for God But He’s not in a hurry So maybe, I shouldn’t be either.

A Piece of Eternity

Last Thursday I put my phone on airplane mode and set my life on monastery mode. I spent four nights – three full days – at a Benedictine monastery situated on a dairy farm in the hills above Hawke’s Bay, New Zealand. I settled quite easily into monastery life, attending the many services each day […]

Off The Grid

Sometimes you need to go off grid to get back on track. For a while now, I have been feeling a strong need for a retreat, to practice stillness, to wait, to be rather than do. In her book, “When the Heart Waits,” Sue Monk Kidd writes, “Aligning ourselves – heart, body, mind, and spirit – into […]

Why My Opinion Makes Sense And Yours Seems Totally Irrational

The other day I made the mistake of posting something controversial on my personal Facebook wall. I usually don’t, because I have a lot of “friends” on there whose backgrounds, opinions and beliefs are all across the spectrum, and I try not to invite flame wars between them. Most of the stuff I write on […]