I may have forgotten my wedding anniversary this year, which is its own kind of victory. But this day I have seen coming for a while, looming darkly on the horizon. And now it is here. One year ago today I experienced the worst day of my life when my entire world shattered into dust. For […]
Read More One Year LaterFriends, family, citizens of the Internet, I need your help. It’s one of those pesky details I’ve been avoiding addressing through this whole super fun adventure of becoming unmarried. What about that whole name thing? This is always the hardest question for me when I’m building a character in video games, and when I got […]
Read More Xylophone, Stardust, DragonbornI desperately want to write, but I can’t find the words. There are, however, so many words. Words set to music that have been my comfort, my motivation, my lifeline, my determination, my soundtrack. I hesitate to share them with you: family, friends, and Internet strangers because, although they are mostly well-known, sharing them with […]
Read More Soundtrack of a Life ApocalypseIt’s not the first time I’ve used a video game metaphor for my life, and it won’t be the last. Unlike video games, there is no reset button on life. But much like some of my favourite video games, there is a a way to take the experiences, items and elements from a previous play […]
Read More New Game PlusFrom a safe vantage point of The Other Side Of The Planet, I am beginning to take some time to process what I have been through. “Always Forward” has gotten me through the immediate aftermath of my marriage apocalypse, but the intention was never to ignore the past forever. In order to truly move forward, […]
Read More How To Survive a Marriage ApocalypseEverything burned down. It happened so quickly. I just barely escaped with my life. That’s how it feels. After nearly a month away, I’ve returned with a brave face and a broken heart to the place where my world fell apart. After few frantic days of sorting, repacking, moving and unpacking my significantly pared down […]
Read More When All Around Has FallenToday I had a rather unintentional victory. I completely forgot that today is, or was, or would have been, my wedding anniversary. I completely forgot, in spite of an encouraging card left on my desk this morning (“Yes, today is a difficult day,” I thought. “It’s Monday, and I’m exhausted from moving, and it’s the […]
Read More Oh, Was That Today?I caught myself, for just a second, wishing for “happier times.” Happier times, when I wasn’t broken. Happier times, when he was by my side. Happier times, when… when… Stop. It’s true, I have never felt more pain, more brokenness, more utter sadness, than in this aftermath of the story I wish I never had […]
Read More Happier Times“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” -Maya Angelou Once upon a time, there was a girl who was given a heart to call her own. It was the prettiest thing she had ever seen: large and bright and made of something like glass. She was very happy and she […]
Read More A girl’s storyShortly after my husband and I got officially engaged, we set off to the nearest Starbucks to plan our wedding, armed with a notebook, a checklist his dad had printed off the Internet, and a pile of magazine clippings his mom had been saving since… what year does that one say? 200…2? Had we even met […]
Read More How I Almost Got Un-Engaged At Starbucks
