That Fresh Feeling

As the sun sets on the last day of a rather difficult year, here’s a few good things worth celebrating…

Epilogue

if i’m not the love of your life i’ll be the greatest loss instead -rupi kaur Last week, I got divorced. There, I said it. The D-word. How do I feel? It’s like a birthday without the cake and balloons… you don’t feel instantly different.

One Year Later

I may have forgotten my wedding anniversary this year, which is its own kind of victory. But this day I have seen coming for a while, looming darkly on the horizon. And now it is here. One year ago today I experienced the worst day of my life when my entire world shattered into dust. For […]

Xylophone, Stardust, Dragonborn

Friends, family, citizens of the Internet, I need your help. It’s one of those pesky details I’ve been avoiding addressing through this whole super fun adventure of becoming unmarried. What about that whole name thing? This is always the hardest question for me when I’m building a character in video games, and when I got […]

Soundtrack of a Life Apocalypse

I desperately want to write, but I can’t find the words. There are, however, so many words. Words set to music that have been my comfort, my motivation, my lifeline, my determination, my soundtrack. I hesitate to share them with you: family, friends, and Internet strangers because, although they are mostly well-known, sharing them with […]

New Game Plus

It’s not the first time I’ve used a video game metaphor for my life, and it won’t be the last. Unlike video games, there is no reset button on life. But much like some of my favourite video games, there is a a way to take the experiences, items and elements from a previous play […]

How To Survive a Marriage Apocalypse

From a safe vantage point of The Other Side Of The Planet, I am beginning to take some time to process what I have been through. “Always Forward” has gotten me through the immediate aftermath of my marriage apocalypse, but the intention was never to ignore the past forever. In order to truly move forward, […]

When All Around Has Fallen

Everything burned down. It happened so quickly. I just barely escaped with my life. That’s how it feels. After nearly a month away, I’ve returned with a brave face and a broken heart to the place where my world fell apart. After few frantic days of sorting, repacking, moving and unpacking my significantly pared down […]

Oh, Was That Today?

Today I had a rather unintentional victory. I completely forgot that today is, or was, or would have been, my wedding anniversary. I completely forgot, in spite of an encouraging card left on my desk this morning (“Yes, today is a difficult day,” I thought. “It’s Monday, and I’m exhausted from moving, and it’s the […]

Happier Times

I caught myself, for just a second, wishing for “happier times.” Happier times, when I wasn’t broken. Happier times, when he was by my side. Happier times, when… when… Stop. It’s true, I have never felt more pain, more brokenness, more utter sadness, than in this aftermath of the story I wish I never had […]