In Between

Today is Holy Saturday, the in-between day. The day of silence, stillness, unknowns. In the Easter story timeline, the worst-case scenario has happened and no one yet knows what comes next. It’s a time of shock, stress, grief, anxiety, numbness, darkness, and waiting. In the current timeline… about the same. I feel very much in-between. […]

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A Day of Lament

Today is Maundy Thursday, and I’m so glad it’s here. Finally, a day dedicated to lament and sorrow. All my favourite people are broken.  But there’s enough sorrow in the world today. Why dwell on it? Why give it any more space? Optimism has its place, but so does lament. Believe me, my heart should […]

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Silver Linings

I tried to write about hope, but it seemed too far away, too forced. I tried to find hope and found an article about penguins exploring empty aquariums, and that seemed good enough for now. The aquarium used the phrase “silver lining” and that seemed to fit a bit better than the vaguely taunting concept […]

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A New Foundation

“If you can’t work out what’s going on, you’re better served by building a better foundation.” -from “12 Rules to Learn to Code” Already a month has passed since the beginning of the new year and the new decade. I am one month removed from Everything That Happened Before, one month into my new story.  I […]

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A New Story

There is nothing quite like the feeling of a clean blank page brought on by a new year. Make it a new decade, even better. This time at the turning of the year is meant to be a time for reflecting, but I am honestly weary of reflecting on the past. I’m thankful that I […]

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Completing The Quest

Taking the Ring to Mordor It is a quest of epic proportions, taking the Ring of Power to Mordor to cast it into the fires of Mt. Doom. Just the kind of quest I need. For my second trip to New Zealand, on a quest to come “full circle”on the healing journey I’d begun there […]

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A Perfect End

Of all the things I got to experience as part of my monastery stay, by far my favourite was “Compline.” Compline is the short, sweet, last service of the day. As the sun goes down the monks sing their final hymns and say their final prayers of the day. It is “the hour of peaceful […]

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A Piece of Eternity

Last Thursday I put my phone on airplane mode and set my life on monastery mode. I spent four nights – three full days – at a Benedictine monastery situated on a dairy farm in the hills above Hawke’s Bay, New Zealand. I settled quite easily into monastery life, attending the many services each day […]

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